Wednesday, June 30, 2010

some truths

So I was sitting here thinking after posting and after yesterdays fiasco. Something occurred to me about the truths of friendship. Forget the old saying of " a reason, a season, a lifetime" and take on the mantra of "toxic or not". Sure the old standby about friendship is true, there are some that will stand the tests of time and others that are fleeting. However in those truths are some unpleasantnesses that we tend to avoid even though our guts are telling us "danger, you dumb ass". Remember not all relationships fit a standard pattern but as long as it feel right, as long as you feel valued, can trust and be trusted (though really if you're being honest and conducting yourself right there isn't one fricking thing you can do to alter someone other than yourself), that weird it may be, but good it is then go on and enjoy!
No matter the relationship (friend, lover, family, work) toxic is toxic! We all know someone who seems to suck the life out of you. Someone who if you have a headache they have a brain tumor. Someone who says they value and trust you but keep doing and saying things that prove otherwise. These are bad. If you're the one doing them, which you might not be ready to acknowledge you part in it, then stop. Please realize you get what you get for a reason and if people avoid you or ignore you perhaps it's a subconscious reaction or perhaps they just don't know how to break the news to you that you are an annoying douchebag?! Okay, okay, we don't have to love everything about everyone, there will always be people we don't agree with, but it doesn't mean we can't respect each other. It doesn't mean we can't conduct ourselves and be to others how we want to be treated.
Always remember when you point a finger three point back at you. Before you point out the speck in another's eye, take care of the log in you own. Translation is before you go on ranting about this, that and the other about someone else.....stop.... think.... look in the mirror of your soul and be REALLY honest about how you've been to other people. I can be honest with you about my flaws, my lacking skills, my mistakes and frailties and am open to hearing you..... can you say the same.
Sometimes this hurts because honesty is not always fun nor does it always work in your favour but how can you say you have a relationship of any kind without it?! I'm not saying be hurtful or tactless. I am saying ENOUGH of the game playing, shit slinging and useless toying. If you value me show me with your actions, words are mere shadows of the reality.
Oh crap, I babbled just a wee bit again didn't I?! Really I didn't fit it into what's running about in my head but it's okay, I think I got out most of the important stuff in a way you'll get (hopefully). I just get so frustrated with the way we treat each other in the world lately and I wish there were more people who would just stop playing the games of deception and "I'm better than...". It gets really sad to watch and we all have so much more potential than that.

peace, blessings & furry kisses

p.s. I'm sure this'll bite me in the arse but what hasn't so ....why not be honest with you. LOL!

just so you know.....

If you visit any of my shops you'll be seeing this message
"Thanks for dropping in, but I've gone on summer siesta until July 14, 2010! Sorry for any inconvenience and I look forward to seeing you again in July."
I am just taking a wee break to get a bit more headway on a project and also to freshen up things a little in the shops too! I hate to do it but I think the 'break' will do me good and give me a chance to perhaps organize a wee bit better so I can improve in consistency and attentiveness, lol. I am not actually going anywhere physically aside from maybe my rec room sofa to play a little more L4D2 so you can always reach me.
Ok, well I've got one more update to do so I'll leave you to get on it and then have a nosh! I expect to see you soon.

peace, blessings & furry kisses

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

today has been....

really fucking hard. I watched Japan loose in the World Cup in a penalty shoot out! I apparently lost a friendship because the friend heard but wouldn't listen. And I'm so fricking tired with school and not sleeping and trying to squeeze everything in, I just want a nap but can't have one.

LOL there could be worse things to complain about, I know. The friendship one bugs me but I can't keep repeating the same thing over and over and if the person chooses to insist I'm wrong and doesn't want to listen then .... what can I do?! I can accept and acknowledge my faults, why can't you?! Sucks but you can lead a horse to water however you can't make 'em drink.

I am still at work on the creations I let you have a peek of. It's going way slower than I'd like but I'm still chugging away, lol. It's worth it when I see my marks coming back as 95% I think. I will however look at better (or any) scheduling so I can play a bit more and have fun show and tell time with you. ;-)

Back to the grindstone for me and as always....
peace, blessings and furry kisses!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

have a peek...

No where near the finished product but I thought you might like a gander.
I'll keep you posted on finish/release date.
peace, blessings & furry kisses

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

crazy and wonderful!

This guy, who I don’t know and am not related to, was on the news today. Nothing exciting there except for the fact he’s doing to be doing 3 ironmans in 3 days! And, wait for the really big deal…. all the funds he raises are going to be used or micro credit for Hati so they can begin new businesses!! Um, how awesome is that?!

Now I am hobbling off to either start dinner or begin some new component pieces. Maybe both, lol.

peace, blessings and furry kisses

Sunday, June 13, 2010


Tomorrow is my parents anniversary. Officially it's been since 1975, unofficially it's been a while longer, lol. To celebrate (and embarrass myself) I thought I'd share a photo from waaaaayyy back, I'm guessing I was 7 or 8ish here so say 1979/1980ish....but the point is Happy Anniversary! LOL, I do tend to ramble don't I.

Thursday, June 3, 2010


Today is a wonderful gift.
Yesterday I walked home from meeting my son at school, barefoot in the rain. It was wonderful. It made me realize just how detached I have become from the earth. Please go walk in the rain. Take a few steps barefoot on the earth. Plunge your hands into the warm ground. It's really good to reconnect with the wonder that we take for granted on a daily basis. Think how much better it might be if we were all barefoot. Would there be litter if you knew you'd have to step in it?!
Today I am sitting near an open window enjoying the cool breeze as the grey clouds gather overhead allowing the briefest of glimpses of sunshine. It's magical.
I think I'll make something today. Not sure what. I'll let you know and until then.....
peace, blessings and furry kisses